"Ruin It" lyrics - ALKALINE TRIO

I've waited a long time for this life just to ruin it
So please don't ruin this for me
Yes, I understand this lie, hell, I crossed those T's, I scratched out all those eyes
Myself last night when I promised not to fight

So this is what I'm looking like these days
All grown up and so full of hate
But I don't want to let go of my rage
'Cause it's the salt that brings the taste

So where am I if you decide that I'm not right?

'Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heartstrings out of tune again
And I might try to apologize
On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around

Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?
Am I being too careful, does this seem right?
Did I open up the shades to expose the sun in rays?
To show what's burned there inside
Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light

'Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heartstrings out of tune again
And I might try to apologize
On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around

I've waited for so long
I've waited for so long
Spread me out, rake me in
This coarse and rocky field will camouflage my skin

And I might break and I might bend
Your heartstrings out of tune again
And I might try to apologize
On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around