"I Wonder" lyrics - BLIND MELON

"All alone in the broadening skies
Under the every night I will lie
Scratching claw and grip the rails
Every day my living hell

"Oh God you know I've tried
I know how hard I tried
And oh I tried...
Uh..."

Hey I'd like to daze away to a
Place like no one has known
In a state of mind I could call mine
That only I could own

Where I could hum a tune anytime
I choose, and then there is no such thing as time
Where I can feel no pain just calm and sane
What a place for one to find

Now you see I'm watching everything
I do and they're watching everything I say
Why won't they leave me be? Leave me be
Why am I even here? I wonder...

You leave me wondering
Won't you stop watching me
I said they're watching me, watching me, watching me
Now in my corner I got the ceiling in my eyes

Arms holding up my knees
And rocking back and forth my life
I didn't mean to feel this way
When I walked into the door, Lord

Then they ripped away my memories
And I can't remember who I was before.
And I only wanted to be 16 and free.
And I wonder