"Shimmer" lyrics - INSANE CLOWN POSSE

INSANE CLOWN POSSE

"Shimmer"

[Intro:]
Dear God
I don't know if you're really real
Because mom and stepdad say that you're total hogwash
But, if you're real, and I believe you are
I could really use your help
Every night, something awful comes from my closet
It's a woman, but she's dead
I don't know why she's here
I don't know what she wants
Most of all
I don't know how to make her go away
And I'm really, really scared
I get the feeling that she wants me dead

Shimmer's not in Heaven, Shimmer's not in Hell
Shimmer's in the Echoside as far as I can tell
I feel her presence when I'm standing at the mirror in the dark
I hear her voice within the wind, vibrating my heart
It terrifies me, in my class I feel I'm free, but too quickly it pass
Before I'm headed back to our sickly house on Caste
Shimmer hates laughter and juveniles
Throughout my day I'd hear her say, "I'll make you pay for every smile"
She was a bad girl who liked to 'cause agony
I guarantee, and now she wants to terrify and bury me
I'm used to sodomy, my dad's a demon and
Mom is drunk and good for nothin' but somethin' to stuff his semen in
Red light illuminates my closet when Shimmer comes
The retched stench and underneath the door, blood runs
I stay in bed, under covers, but fear forces me
To see the closet doors open and Shimmer pointin' at me

[Chorus:]
Eyes black, she's bloody, and she likes that
A child dead in her arms, she takes a bite of his neck
And then chews it, pointin' at me, blood drippin' down her chin
Cocks her head, then she does it again
Eyes black, she's bloody, and she likes that
A child dead in her arms, she takes a bite of his neck
And then chews it, pointin' at me, blood drippin' down her chin
Cocks her head, then she does it again

At school they laugh, I've lost so much hair
But I don't care, our souls are just orbs in the air
I hate our house, but have nowhere to go to
And when we moved in, my mama said, "This is so cool"
I have no brothers or sisters, no fuckin' pets
And my anxiety grows the darker it gets
Why's the sun always leave me? Shimmer's a guarantee
Scarin' me into insanity and no one's hearin' me
I did tell my favorite teacher, Mr. Bardan
I said, "There's a wicked ghost houndin' me around the clock"
He said, "Pray, little man, God's bliss is always there"
Yeah, when Shimmer shows up, that bliss disappears
My stepdad just smacks me, sends me to my room
Somethin' happened in that closet, some untold doom
Because it reeks of death in there, I won't pretend
Then it illuminates, and bloody Shimmer's back again

I left a Bible in that closet, but found it bloody
I just want the world to know I need some help, somebody
When she comes, the temperature drops, I see my breath
My clock light dies out and the room smells of death
I get the sense she's angrier every time she's here
Despite the many times I'm paralyzed in fear
Always holdin' a child about my age
Pointin' at me, why all the frustration and rage?
What if she's just an energy, just pretend to me?
But I believe she's real and wants the end of me
Fuck it, I'll do it, she'll never stop 'til it's correct
I'll walk right into her arms, let her have my neck
That night Shimmer came, I was engulfed in fear
But death don't sound so bad, I've had enough, it's clear
I'd rather die than be her toy to terrify
No more nights of bein' pegged by her starin' eyes

[Chorus:]
Eyes black, she's bloody, and she likes that (By her starin' eyes)
A child dead in her arms, she takes a bite of his neck (By her starin' eyes)
And then chews it, pointin' at me, blood drippin' down her chin (By her starin' eyes)
Cocks her head, then she does it again (By her starin' eyes)
Eyes black, she's bloody, and she likes that (By her starin' eyes)
A child dead in her arms, she takes a bite of his neck
And then chews it, pointin' at me, blood drippin' down her chin
Cocks her head, then she does it again

Her touch stunned me, like sleep paralysis
I couldn't move, but saw all the hell of this
Her mouth up close, it was a black pit
Her teeth sunk in well and I felt a rip
Total darkness, but suddenly, pain
'Til I almost went deaf when she screamed my name
Still paralyzed, I opened my eyes
And found myself alive in my closet, sound of health
The fear poured out of my body, released it's clutch
The first thing I felt was leather's touch
In my hands, The Bible, the one I left in there
It was no longer bloody and all the pages were clear
Her wretched smell gone, the air was warm
And for the first time in years, I felt a calm
From that night forward, Shimmer was aborted
I can't help but feel my bravery was rewarded

[Outro:]
You wanna be rewarded, too?
Then quit bein' a pussy, queef, and let your nuts hang
Do like your boy, Willaby
Slap a condom on a pipe bomb and slide it right up that punk ass (Oh!)
And before that bitch bomb explodes (Brother)
Give 'em two quick slaps to the chops and tell 'em
"I ain't your bitch, bitch, bye-bye, boom!
Ahh-hahahaha"