"Backlash & Vinegar" lyrics - KT TUNSTALL

I carved a hole in the sun
Black edges
Easy to get lost in there
Easy to get lost out there
I found myself underweight
Trying to fill the gaps
To stop the draft
Where the hope escapes

[Pre-Chorus:]
I gotta hold myself better
Fold out just like a map of a mountain
Be the upsetter
And let these bridges burn

[Chorus:]
So take it back
That I'm lacking anything
Saying it might make it easier
But it's backlash and vinegar
I'm just a being, being
Wondering if that's even feasible
And if it's unreasonable
To feel

I starved my soul of the one
Thing that now I see
I should've had
I just repeated
'Til I went mad
And this body knows
What this body never shows
Just leave it to guessing

[Pre-Chorus 2:]
I should write you a letter
Hold out up until the final chapter
Be the successor
And watch this spectre burn

[Chorus:]
So take it back
That I'm lacking anything
Saying it might make it easier
But it's backlash and vinegar
I'm just a being, being
Wondering if that's even feasible
And if it's unreasonable
To feel